No sleep for a week: Overview

I stayed awake for day 6 to see how much had changed after the blackout. It felt like day 2 again. So I didn't bother with day 7. My body had already reached its limits and going any further would be useless. The point is that I proved to myself that I could do it. My body couldn't, but I could. Also, after my blackout, both Sarah and my mom said they had talked to me. Weird huh? I can't even believe I was still awake. I mean, I was trying to type and it took so incredibly long to type one word because I barely knew what was going on, let alone find the right keys. I couldn't talk anymore because I couldn't even hold a conversation.


Now I thought I'd list off any hallucinations I remember, since they were so interesting. First off, mirrors are a get-the-hell-out-of-there-now kind of thing. They are scary. They don't like you. Stay away. Sorry if you have to use the bathroom but NO. I saw so many faces. All of which were either evil, sad, or scared. But mirrors aren't the worst, oh no. The dark. You know when you're in bed at night and you think maybe you see something that looks like a person or something of that sort? Well imagine it really being there. Never go in the dark.. ever. Not even joking. Unless you want to be scared shi-less, just cover your eyes and keep your head down. As for other not as scary things I've seen.. Before my blackout-thing I saw a Native American on my bed who looked like he was screaming in pain and also a child with red hair was standing next to me. I also kept seeing tall people standing next to me. There was also a lot of seeing things out of the corner of my eyes and I couldn't determine what they were. I heard a lot of voices, that most I knew were in my head. It really was like dreaming. So much going on everywhere. One interesting one was footsteps. I saw nothing, but I felt and heard footsteps run past me.


How I acted? Stoned. I felt more open about things. I probably said a few things to a few people that I shouldn't have said. But the weird thing was I talked before I thought. So I guess I said what I wanted without second guessing. I miss being that way. At times I was very irritated and other times I was very very laid back. I was so out-of-it that nothing mattered and, well, I didn't have to think about anything. It was nice. During the beginning, however, I wanted to be alone a lot. Towards the end, I needed to be with someone or I felt like something would hurt me. Also, this is gross, but I couldn't shower the last two days. Hahah, I was afraid of my bathroom.


Now that it's over.. I feel more irritated than ever and really depressed.


A short way to describe all of this; sleeping while awake. Conscious while unconscious. Both at once.



Would I ever do it again?
Not a chance in Hell.

No sleep for a week: Day 5 part 2

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02:01:58:44

Oh aren't blackouts fun? So the last thing I remember I was watching The Office and desperately drinking coffee, trying to research why the hell caffeine wasn't doing anything(I found nothing). That's what I remember. And then I woke up in my bed. What have we learned? I can stay up for a week no matter what I have to go through to do so. I think I've proved that. But my body doesn't give a shite. It's sleeping whether I approve or not. I guess this is it? I mean I've slept for about 6 hours I think. Maybe I'll stay awake the next 2 days anyways. I have no idea where to go from here.

No sleep for a week: Day 5

It's as if my dreams came out of my head and into reality. The number of hallucinations are growing whether I'm paranoid or not. And I doze off with my eyes open! Right now as I'm typing I go off to some daydream that I cannot control. My body is trying to overtake me. It's getting to a point were it's not my choice and I'm going to fall asleep maybe even while I'm out somewhak======

...Alright I just blacked out right during that sentence. I'm not even kidding you. What the hell, those letters aren't even near each other?? WAS I TYPING IN A BLACKOUT??? Well, that was the best timing of anything I've ever seen, EVER. I feel more aware now. Lets see.. so based on my facebook status I posted before I began writing I think I could have been gone for a few minutes. It couldn't have been only a second or two. I feel too awake now. I wonder how many times this has happened? The only reason I notice this is because of what I typed. DARN YOU MICROSLEEP! Beforehand I was seeing hallucinations and so many voices and sounds everywhere and it was getting extremely annoying, which is why I began writing this and now there are few if any. Also there was a lot, I mean a lot of rapid eye movement.

I hate the full blown hallucinations. I was looking into a mirror and it was dark and a evil looking person appeared out of no where and I freaked out. But I'm beginning to face them and trying to make them into what I want rather than random scary things. I keep seeing an eye peeking at me through the door, but I'm getting used to this so it's not scary.
Rah! This REM keeps happening. And so is the daydream thing now. Huh.


Time remaining:
02:10:29:14


-Dreams come true..literally-

No sleep for a week: Day 4

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03:08:21:40

It is getting increasingly difficult to concentrate on anything. It's also difficult to type and even use my mouse..and read of course. I forget what I'm doing and can't remember so I do something else until I recall. I can keep my eyes open, staying awake isn't much of an issue anymore. It's the pain I get in my stomach. I also get nausea. And my paranoia is almost unbearable. I turned off the lights in my room because for some reason I thought it was light outside and and therefore light in my room, but it wasn't. I kind of sat there in shock until it did actually got light out, hoping things would start looking up from there.. but no, things got worse. I'm hallucinating left and right. I really don't think it's the worst it can get. They aren't full blown hallucinations. But they scare the shit outa me. I cried. This isn't pleasant, it's not fun, but I'm going to finish the week no matter what.. okay that's a lie. I have no idea anymore.

I also feel like I'm a different person. Maybe I act about the same, not including the rambling like a stoner part, but it's more of the way I think I guess.


-I'm going to die-

No sleep for a week: Day 3

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04:02:37:41

Most of day 3 has gone by with absolutely no effort at all to stay awake, but that might just be my newly acquired interest in cracked.com. It really passes the time. Talking to friends helps as well. I didn't even need caffeine! It was an weird night, not all that much fun. I have an increasing paranoia. It can really be terrifying. Not easy to deal with at all and I'm not sure what to do about it. I've also been rambling a bunch. It's hard to explain, but a lot like if I were on drugs. As for my first confirmed hallucinations, blinking strips of light and the sound of chains banging together. Exciting? I think so! At least now it is. At the moment it was was more of a "Holy shite, what the Hell?!" kind of feeling. After all of this I had to lay down, watch something and pretend to be asleep for a bit. I wouldn't want my mom telling me I need sleep. That would be healthy, and terrible!
Chopsticks + ice cream = worth it.


-Extremely tired-

No sleep for a week: Day 2

Time remaining:
5:00:03:23

I apologize if I say random things as if I'm just rambling. It's hard to remember things so it's all kind of jumbled.

At about 6 or 7 I dozed off for for a bit. Not long. I've become so out-of-it that I can't even tell if I've been asleep or not. My sleepiness switches on and off. Sometimes I'm incredibly tired and other times I'm not at all. I took a shower for the soul purpose of being able to sit and close my eyes without sleeping. It helped with my sore muscles as well. I've also been keeping a wash cloth soaked with cold water near me so I can wet my face. I wonder if it would help to slap myself? Probably. The hardest thing for me is keeping myself from boredom all night. I've found that watching comedies helps to keep my entertained. Video games only work for so long. I think I'll try doing some cleaning tonight.. or some crafts! I would love to be productive and draw or read some books I have yet to finish, but I think that would relax me too much. Perhaps some energetic music.

Oh, I also bought a 2-liter of Mountain Dew for emergencies, like this morning.
I think the espresso I had a while ago is wearing off..


-Fairly tired-

No sleep for a week: Day 1

The purpose of this is merely to see how much I can will myself to do something. I mean, a week of a hell of a lota Warcraft sounds fun, but staying awake the whole time seems.. not so fun. So how am I actually planning to pull this terrible idea off? A lot of keeping myself busy, a lot of snacks, a lot of water, and a looot of coffee. I'm actually about three hours from finishing day one and it's already killing me. BUT by making this blog, it's as if I've signed a contract with myself to go through with it even if it's bad for my health. And being as obsessive as I am, I can't go back on my word. That would be realistic, and awful. I'm fairly sure most people have stayed awake for at least 24 hours, but just in case you haven't.. So far I'm feeling minor muscle pains, fatigue, forgetfulness(or just being out-of-it[but that might be normal with me]), and I get startled more easily. Wish me luck!

Oh, I'll also be taking a picture each day. I thought it'd be interesting to watch the bags under my eyes grow. I may post them later.
(Now posted!)



-Overly joyful-